Of struggles.
It’s been a really long time.
It’s one of those struggles, when your heart doesn’t agree with your mind. You know what’s right, and what God thinks, but you simply can’t bring yourself to obeying because your heart just screams otherwise.
Yesterday during worship i cried out to God to deliver me from this wretchedness. Sometimes i really wonder if i can ever overcome this struggle. It just HAUNTS me. And I can’t find a better word to describe this.
God’s love and grace never fails to comfort me.
I cannot choose what my heart feels. The sinful carnal nature at work withing me, that i cannot choose.
But i can choose to do what is right, with the motivation stemming from God’s love for me and my love for God. I can choose to take captive of every thought and make it obedient to Christ. I can choose to not dwell in ungodly thoughts. All these, i can choose.
I don’t know how long it will take before I overcome ths area of struggle in my life. It may even take a lifetime. But what i do know is God’s grace IS enough.
